Mick, I've only just seen this and I'm sorry to hear your loss but pleased to hear you're getting more positive now - and yes, great peeps here 8) :-*
Don't forget, tho, to put any other wish-list things into swap shop - we don't actually want swaps and are always happy to seeds seeds go to good homes...
now then...tumbling tomatoes perhaps? (seems approppriate ;)) And how about a couple of sunflower seeds to cheer you up 8) ;D